Away

[yumpy]

I don't know for how long, or if I'll end up leaving you forever. I need to get away and think it through more.

I get this tight, limiting feel from MUSTANG at the moment. No, not saying it's the site, as I used to be addicted to this marvellous place, just something that's developed in me.

I'm getting very involved with my horses again now, and am trying to get Manny to his competition in 3 weeks and then have him re-homed so I can head to the sales and pick up one or two 'Dogged Horses.' Hundreds of TB's and other breeds go for meat here in my state monthly, and most are beautiful, sound little horses. It's my goal, and currently that's all I'm thinking about. I'm putting up new fences, making new rope halters etc etc. all in preparation. So that's where my heart is right now.

Perhaps I need to grow up, or perhaps I've just been here too long. Sundari is... me, I have so, so much muse for him all the time. But not here. There's something that crushes my will to post. I can't tell if it will come back or not, so that's why I don't know if I'm going away or leaving all together. Honestly Sundari and Amorous Valley is all that has kind of... glued me here all this time. And I hate the idea of all those hours I spent fighting for mares, plotting etc. will just be wasted when I give it up. That's why I havn't been able to bring myself to do it, because without a land, Sundari isn't himself. And without Sundari, I'll be lost. But I understand that the activity needs to stay up and going, so if Staff are going to put it up for claim, I'll 100% understand.

So bye for now, I'm always popping in, I just can't... guarentee how active I'll be- if it all. It saddens me... writing this, but I think I need to wake up and smell the roses. It is such a big world out there, and as much as I want to, writing every week isn't going to keep me satisfied with myself. There are horses to save, careers to build. I currently feel as though I'm trying to keep up with the 5 day lead posting, and it's always in the back of my head that I need to post. That's not healthy. This is meant to be leisure, not a chore. So I need to see if I can ignite some old flames, and if not, I'm sad to say I may need to leave.

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[trynx]

aww yumpy D= I wants to cry now.

Save lots of horses on your break and hopefully you will come back!

I'll message you about Sundari and the land stuff so watch for a pm later. I'd send it now but i have to head to school!

[krowned]

D; I feel the same way lately because for some reason my muse for rping is just damaged. I don't know why but I think my reason is that i'm just way too busy in life right now. I've been trying to spend more time with my horses and working on my studies and fitting MUSTANG into all that just is horrible. I can hardly ever ride my horses as it is, let alone get on MUSTANG.

YOU NEED TO SAVE THOSE HORSES! So I understand why your leaving. We'll all really miss you </3 -crosses fingers- I hope you can come back and Sundari makes a galliant return and gets his land back. Maybe he'll even be able to keep it in his honor :/ -shrugs- ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO COME BACK!

[Wicked Sama]

Hope you'll be able to get active again <3 It's too bad we're losing another awesome staff member D: So hello every now and again ^^ And yes, Trynx and I will talk to you about Amorous, I think it's a good idea to give it up for now. :/ Because none of us want to watch Amorous die <3

[yumpy]

You're not losing me yet, Wicked. I just need some thinking space for a little while. Perhaps Sundari and his family saw an opportunity elsewhere, and moved on for a while? My will to post Azure is still there, but that all comes down to you and Nzukii as I've noticed it's taking you a little while to reply. So if you don't have muse for them as a couple, then that's fine.

Perhaps if I just don't have that constant reminder that I need to post Sundari, I'll be fine. Unfortunately that means no Sundari on MUSTANG, but I can fix that by taking him somewhere else.

Thanks so much, Krowned. Your support means a lot to me. I'm not leaving yet though, it's just one of the options I'm considering. I might see if I can survive without my beloved Sundari for a little while, and if not... I'll deal with that when it happens.

Also Trynx, I hate to be a hassel but I'm not really feeling like I want to get technical about things so soon. As I said, I don't know what will happen. I'm sure I've annoyed people with my inactivity for long enough, so if Amorous is going up for claim, so be it. As for the other things I honestly don't have the heart to enthusiastically inform you of my plans yet- as I don't know what will come of this. I hope to keep trying with Azure, and see how she works out. So don't make any immediate decisions please.

I just need a couple of days, and then I'll hopfuly give it all another shot. Thanks.

[Wicked Sama]

Aye, I've fallen a bit behind on our thread with them. I'll try to get that reply up today, because I do adore Azure ^^ Especially with that new table you made her o.o drool. Anyways, perhaps when things are more settled down you can bring Sundari back full force. He deserves to be the center of attention again

I'm glad you're not leaving us entirely! I'd miss you D: