Post by moth on Dec 5, 2011 14:47:04 GMT -5
Yes, I know I said I was quitting. Yes, I've done it before and have returned. Yes, I am now returning - once again.
My life is a mess right now.
My brain just isn't right. I go through days where nothing is going right and I contemplate suicide, to days where I'm bouncing off the walls I'm so happy. OR, I get both moods in the one day. As you've probably guessed, the day I quit was a very bad day, as well as most of the days before and after it.
The reason? I've been off my anti-depressants. For some stupid reason I decided I could live without them. My hubby and I want to have kids, and I got it into my head that I'd be a better mother if I wasn't popping pills every day. Unfortunately I clearly need the anti-depressants, and will most likely need them for the rest of my life. I've accepted that now. Going to the doctor today to get more.
I've also been bleeding for 5 weeks straight. Probably too much info, but it's a big reason behind my mood swings. It's a side-effect for the treatment I was on for endometriosis which doctors failed to tell me about. As I said, we want to have kids, and it's really hard while I'm bleeding, so that's bringing both hubby and I down quite a bit. Not the best relationship right now, lol.
Annd, hubby's mum has turned into a bitch. Told Brad he should get rid of me - that I'm not good enough for him and I'm a shit wife. o.O That really hurt, especially considering everything else that's going on.
So yeah - I'm a messed up Moth. I hope you will all forgive me for the drama. I'll be normal from now on - I promise. This place is such a part of my life now that I can't leave. Even if I'm no longer welcome, I still plan on staying. I'll just lurk in the shadows.
Kasumi will be returning. Not sure about Tira at this stage.
My life is a mess right now.
My brain just isn't right. I go through days where nothing is going right and I contemplate suicide, to days where I'm bouncing off the walls I'm so happy. OR, I get both moods in the one day. As you've probably guessed, the day I quit was a very bad day, as well as most of the days before and after it.
The reason? I've been off my anti-depressants. For some stupid reason I decided I could live without them. My hubby and I want to have kids, and I got it into my head that I'd be a better mother if I wasn't popping pills every day. Unfortunately I clearly need the anti-depressants, and will most likely need them for the rest of my life. I've accepted that now. Going to the doctor today to get more.
I've also been bleeding for 5 weeks straight. Probably too much info, but it's a big reason behind my mood swings. It's a side-effect for the treatment I was on for endometriosis which doctors failed to tell me about. As I said, we want to have kids, and it's really hard while I'm bleeding, so that's bringing both hubby and I down quite a bit. Not the best relationship right now, lol.
Annd, hubby's mum has turned into a bitch. Told Brad he should get rid of me - that I'm not good enough for him and I'm a shit wife. o.O That really hurt, especially considering everything else that's going on.
So yeah - I'm a messed up Moth. I hope you will all forgive me for the drama. I'll be normal from now on - I promise. This place is such a part of my life now that I can't leave. Even if I'm no longer welcome, I still plan on staying. I'll just lurk in the shadows.
Kasumi will be returning. Not sure about Tira at this stage.
